Uncertainty grows within
Things have been more than a little off lately. I feel…well, I feel a lot of things all at once. The weight of uncertainty, the fear of not knowing what…
Continue readingMother moon
She walks the night sky,The moon; a goddess so fair,With silver light in her eyes,And beauty beyond compare. She guides the tides of the sea,And reigns over the night,With a…
Continue readingSamhain
Samhain is a festival marking the end of the harvest season and the beginning of the dark half of the year (Winter). It is held on November 1st with celebrations…
Continue reading37 trips around the sun
My entire life my birthday has been my favorite holiday, yes I said holiday. When I was a kid it was for no other reason than it was my birthday…
Continue readingMy Roswell Park appointment
On the hospital’s second floor, sitting in the lymphoma department waiting room, my anxiety was quickly building. I’m not even sure why, I mean I had already gotten the hard…
Continue readingThe days after diagnoses
After making my rounds of calls and sending the necessary texts I just sat still trying to process all the things. My mom told me she wanted to call Roswell…
Continue readingJust a little reminder
Have you ever wondered what depression looks like? What do Self-harm and suicidal thoughts/behavior look like? What about numbing anger and overwhelming sorrow? This right here is what all of…
Continue readingInside
Alone I stand in the middle of the room. Surrounded by nothing but air. Cool, damp air. There is a glow from above. The source is unseen. The warmth has…
Continue readingMy Reconnecting Ritual
As I do with most things, I tend to neglect my spiritual side when I hit a manic state. Luckily the goddesses and gods hold no grudges as they in…
Continue reading18 very short years
Today my firstborn turns 18. Where did 18 years even go? I feel like it was just a few months ago I held him for the first time. Just a…
Continue readingBook Talk; My Survival
So I haven’t done one of these in a while and well I just recently finished this book and enjoyed it. I actually found it at my nephew’s school book…
Continue readingThings I still avoid talking about
I pride myself on being very open and honest about my life. The things I have done no matter how fucked up they were. I am just a human though…
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