The disasters only I see
I get this pain in my chest when I start to picture what it looks like when it all falls apart. When I see all the…
Mental Health
The words on the pages
I had this natural unbalance inside of me and I hadn’t yet found a way to steady it. I struggled with all the confusion inside me…
Changes
Change is something that my manic brain both loves and hates. Like most people, I am not fond of life-altering changes. Sudden sickness or a big…
To the girl, I used to be
I think about you often and talk about you more, you see your story has helped so many and has brought me so far. I know…
Time for change
Today my boyfriend brought to my attention for probably the millionth time that I need to stop putting so much pressure on myself and just go…
Revisiting the wormhole
It took about 6 days after the dismantling of the razor before I actually used it. For a time just knowing it was there was good…
November 6, 2019
WARNING: THIS POST WILL BE LONGER THAN MOST! The above date was the date of my very last post. The last day where I had found…
Up to my old tricks
I couldn’t seem to let go of the rage that was still swimming through me even weeks after my blow up. I had no real reason…
I often wonder
I often wonder what the world would look like through “normal” eyes. If the chaos looks the same to you as it does to me. I…
After the blowup
After my explosion people distanced themselves from me. Which to be honest I was okay with. No one here had seen me like that so they…