After my explosion people distanced themselves from me. Which to be honest I was okay with. No one here had seen me like that so they weren’t really sure if there would be an encore so they chose to play keep away.

I had a new reason to keep to myself and not deal with the stuff around me. For a while anyway. I had lost privileges which I was also okay with as most of them required social interaction that I wanted no part of.

I spent a lot of my time refocusing on my school work so that I could graduate and get on with my life. I had gone back to keeping quiet when it came to talking with Ms. Jessica and the shrink. I kept things short and only answered simple questions that didn’t lead to more questions.

At this point, the only person I was really talking to about things was Momma Sheryl. She helped me focus on the important things and helped me keep my stress and manic episodes at a semi-low status and I needed that more than I even knew at the time.

It was nice to have everyone else want to leave me alone but it was just as nice to know that if needed I had someone that I could turn to without fear of judgment.

As the days went on and my restrictions came to an end most of the staff and I had talked about and mended the things that occurred during my explosion. There were still Staff that I had issues with that I felt no need to smooth things out with and they felt no need to push the issues and no one wanted a repeat of my last episode.

Eventually, everyone seemed to move on and return to normal interactions and day to day life, everyone but me that is.

” Life can only be understood backward, but it must be lived forwards.” – Soren Kierkegaard

About the Author

Brandy Clear is woman who has walked down some of the darkest paths life has to offer. She has taken a lot of these steps alone. As she has rebuilt her life and self she has made it her mission to be the light to as many people as she can. She wants no one to have to walk alone in the dark. She does not want to save you, she just wants to remind you that you are not alone.

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