Finding a new world
You could usually find my mother at night sitting on the couch with her tea and a book. She loved to read. She taught me to love to read and…
Continue readingFinding a light
I felt so alone and like the decision I made was something horrible. I couldn’t understand why something I though was right could be seen as so horrible. I spent…
Continue readingA new way to cope
I can remember the first time a counselor suggested I write and a form of release. She told me I didn’t have to show it to anyone, the writing wasn’t…
Continue readingWhen it’s dark
People always tend to point out the good in someones life when they are at a low point. This is meant to be (most times) helpful and reflective. The problem…
Continue readingChained to the past
People never want to except that someone that has done them or others wrong for any length of time could ever really change for the better. They always have some…
Continue readingA rough start
That cab ride seemed to go on forever while the driver asked too many questions I wasn’t ready to answer. Getting home felt hazy and numb. I remember bypassing my…
Continue readingThoughts of death
I can clearly remember the first time I wanted to die, to just end it all and be done with this life. I hated waking up and doing anything. I…
Continue readingMissing Pieces
There are moments of my past that I can’t remember. Things people in my life can tell me about in detail I can’t even vaguely recall the events. I didn’t…
Continue readingLearning to Hide
For a long time or at least what felt like a long time I couldn’t stop thinking about that day in my room with those scissors. The pain, the release,…
Continue readingMisunderstood
When you want so bad for someone to listen to you try to understand but you can’t find a way to explain any of what your thinking or feeling. You…
Continue readingThat first drop
We all find ways to cope and comfort ourselves when times call for it. Not all of these ways are understood by those around us nor are they always safe…
Continue readingI always knew
At some point in life you find yourself looking at the people around you in a light you hadn’t before and slowly you begin to compare yourself to them. This…
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