Moving forward
After my first Birth mother’s day experience and the over whelming love I felt from people who hardly knew me the lack of support at home became less relevant to…
Continue readingPlease Understand
There is this darkness inside of me where all things bad reside. I do my very best to stay away from there as I have become very familiar with it…
Continue readingOpening up
As I began to learn more about the wiccan belief system I found myself in this place of peace and understanding. I found myself becoming connected to things around me…
Continue readingMy first Birth Mother’s day
The Saturday before Mother’s day is Birth Mother’s day and although it is a nationally recognized holiday it is rarely celebrated in the public light. Adoption Star however felt that…
Continue readingThe Slow way down
I didn’t notice things change for what felt like a long time. I was doing fine by addicts’ standards anyway. I still hadn’t much of a relationship with others that…
Continue readingHolding on
I have never been able to easily let thinks go. I am not one to forgive quickly either. I doesn’t matter if its forgiving someone else or myself it’s just…
Continue readingSlowly Steadying
I had found a family within Adoption Star. Between the staff and other birth mothers I was able to connect with because of Adoption Star I had found enough support…
Continue readingDark trap
I always had an overflow of emotion when I would experience it. No matter if the emotion was good or bad there was always too much of it. Even when…
Continue readingA book with a hold
The first time I ever really feel in love with a book I was in middle school. At this point I had already enjoyed reading but my mere enjoyment was…
Continue readingUnstable relief
There was a point where I was cutting throughout the day. Not just when I was upset or overwhelmed by the lack of feelings, but just randomly throughout the day….
Continue readingFinding support
After our meeting getting the pictures and letters in the mail brought me a whole new joy. I still had my hard times with my decision mostly because so many…
Continue readingTreading water
After that first overdose, I slowed down my intake a little bit and tried to pay more attention to how much and how often I was using so there was…
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