November 6, 2019
WARNING: THIS POST WILL BE LONGER THAN MOST! The above date was the date of my very last post. The last day where I had found enough mental strength inside…
Continue readingThe kettle gets called out
While Joe and I were living together I had started to see a guy with will call him Kevin. See Kevin was married. He would come by after work for…
Continue readingUp to my old tricks
I couldn’t seem to let go of the rage that was still swimming through me even weeks after my blow up. I had no real reason at this point to…
Continue readingA growingly dangerous party
At some point in all the chaos happing around me Becca and I had decided to move in together. At some point, Tom had moved back into his dad’s house…
Continue readingI often wonder
I often wonder what the world would look like through “normal” eyes. If the chaos looks the same to you as it does to me. I often wonder what it…
Continue readingAfter the blowup
After my explosion people distanced themselves from me. Which to be honest I was okay with. No one here had seen me like that so they weren’t really sure if…
Continue readingThe separation
I still had mixed feelings about sitting with little man the way I did so I did my best to avoid Steve for awhile. Eventually, Steve caught on to the…
Continue readingThe point of explosion
For the most part, I was really good at keeping myself together. Except for the occasional (maybe regular-ish) backtalk. When it came to my physical lashing out though I had…
Continue readingFinding a friend
As time went on I hadn’t found myself getting close with any of the girls around me but the adults were a different story. Staff and I got along, for…
Continue readingAn unexpected battle
I would go through these days where the depression was bigger than I was (to be honest I still struggle with this) and I would struggle so hard to do…
Continue readingThe chains dig in
This thing with Becca and Steve was quickly getting out of control. They were fighting and arguing all the time, and if they weren’t together they were bitching about each…
Continue readingOut with the new in with the old
After spending weeks with that one little paperclip I found a peace that I had been missing. My attitude had changed and I was less aggressive to those around me….
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