Today my boyfriend brought to my attention for probably the millionth time that I need to stop putting so much pressure on myself and just go with the flow.
Perusal he isn’t wrong. I tend to do this with almost everything. I put myself through so much unneeded pressures and stress and tend to lose my passion I started with because now I am not having fun or feeling good I am just feeling stressed and concerned.
When I first started this blog I was so excited and so ready to do this and at first, things were going great. I was writing every day and it was just coming with ease. Slowly the writers’ block started to happen and missing days began to give me anxiety and stress me out.
Then the manic low hit and well you all know that story so moving on…
I want to get back to loving this and looking forward to sitting down and feeling relaxed and ready to continue my story. My plan to get there is simple and literally exactly what Travus told me I should do.
I will be removing the schedule from the website and I will be easing myself through my posts from now on. If it takes me 3 days in between posts then it takes 3 days. I am not going to set myself up to fail or feel like I have failed myself or anyone else.
So slow and easy it is, with everything this year to be honest. I plan to live life this year one day at a time. I have made myself some goals that are realistic and I plan to accomplish them in time and without unneeded stresses.
Taking unrealistic deadlines and goals out of my life is part of that as I work full time and have other life responsibilities to deal with day to day. Therefore we are taking these types of things away from everything in life, not just the website.
I am hoping that this will be a start to reducing the pressure and stress I put on myself. I am also hoping this will be the start of something that brings me joy and peace as it once did, instead of the fear that I am not doing enough and or letting others down.
“Un-winged and naked, sorrow surrenders its crown to a throne called grace.”