I think about you often and talk about you more, you see your story has helped so many and has brought me so far.

I know you, better than anyone and I can hear you say “Yeah you talk about me but do you really talk about who I am or who you want me to be”. I never sugar coat your story. I keep it loud and raw, just like you. Not one detail is hidden.

The story is told just the way you’d like it, chaotically honest and free of shame.

You never thought there would come a day when the things you said and did impacted others in a non-agonizing kind of way. Your darkness has transformed into the brightest light some have ever seen.

The strength I have received from all your suffering has helped me overcome some of the most difficult things in my life, as well as others.

I am still saddened that you had to suffer so much even when that suffering was self-induced, but I am thankful for what it has taught me and what I am now able to teach others that are suffering as you once did.

Just as it was then not everything is good all the time, I still struggle and I have even stumbled and fallen a time or two but never once have I given up and for that I thank you.

I thank you for reminding me every time I get low just how low I could be and every time I feel weak reminding me just how strong I really am. There is no going back and fixing all the wrong for you but I am here working my ass off to make the rest of this life a beautiful one and I have you in mind every step of the way.

To the girl I used to be, please know I think of you often and talk about you more. I am forever grateful for all you went through to get me to where I am. The debt I owe you can only be repaid by being your rainbow after the storm.

“The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.” -Dolly Parton

About the Author

Brandy Clear is woman who has walked down some of the darkest paths life has to offer. She has taken a lot of these steps alone. As she has rebuilt her life and self she has made it her mission to be the light to as many people as she can. She wants no one to have to walk alone in the dark. She does not want to save you, she just wants to remind you that you are not alone.

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