The joy I had inside of my heart that day as I returned home from that first visit was overwhelming. For the first time since I made the choice to place my son for adoption I knew I made the right decision.

I walked through the door of my apartment smiling ear to ear. In that very moment I decided that if I was going to be a part of my son’s life the way I had been invited to be I needed to get my shit together and quick.

I had about a month and half of sobriety under my belt at this point but I was still living in a drug ridden house filled with addicts.

I had no job and no real way to take care of myself and the place I was living didnt ask much of me but I knew if I stayed I would end up right back in the hole I so desperately wanted to stay out of.

I reached out to some people and places to look for help to get out of where I was so I could stay clean and try to rebuild my life. For the first time I had some real hope on things turning around for me.

I couldn’t have been more grateful for the first interaction with Dana and Wayne. They showed me that the good I had long given up on was with in my reach and that I was so much more than a drug addict that couldn’t care for a child.

I knew these two people would be special to me but I didn’t realize at the time just how important that would be in my journey to get and stay clean as well as cleaning up the rest of my life.

” I didn’t lose my child; I gained an entire family and support system I didn’t have before” – Brandy Clear

About the Author

Brandy Clear is woman who has walked down some of the darkest paths life has to offer. She has taken a lot of these steps alone. As she has rebuilt her life and self she has made it her mission to be the light to as many people as she can. She wants no one to have to walk alone in the dark. She does not want to save you, she just wants to remind you that you are not alone.

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