As some of you may have noticed the last few weeks my posts seem to be spastic and irregular. For this I apologize. I know that it can be frustrating to go to look for something where you expect it to be only to find it’s not there.
There has been a lot happening in my life at the moment and I have let it become over whelming and bring me down. I have been in an awful headspace as of late and I am doing my best to climb out of it.
Now not everything going on is bad or negative. I am still moving forward with the NA meetings I am just waiting for some paperwork to be filed in the right places and I will be good to go. Yes it has taken a bit longer than I would have liked, but we are still moving forward.
I have recently had a falling out with someone I once considered very close to me and this has taken a toll on me mentally. It has helped push me into a dark and unforgiving headspace that I do not have time to dwell in.
I am slowly seeing all the things I have allowed myself to be blind to. It hurts me and causes me so much anger but it is time for me to cut this toxicity out of my life as it is doing me nothing but harm.
I am reconnecting with my goddess and her guiding light as I have drifted from these things in this time of change when in reality I should be holding on tighter.
I have made some career changes in my mind and am working on making them a reality.
My original plans were dampened by a lack of faith in my abilities and this has also caused me to withdraw. I had put some time into what I had thought I wanted to do and in the blink of an eye other people were able to shake my confidence enough to make me doubt my choices.
I may have refocused my sights on some things as a result of all of these things but changes are still coming and as scary as that can be I am determined to find the joy and excitement in it all.
I will not allow myself to dwell in this place of pain and loathing. I am pulling myself out and continuing this journey with you.
“You are braver than you believe. Strong than you seem. And smarter than you think.” – Winnie The Pooh